TwistedMind

i'm hungry again...

already taken my brakfast... 3 curry puff & 3 nuggets...

when i look at my FB,

suddenly it twist back my memory box,'

on the 'event' that happened last Fri...

it was a gr8 day (kinda sad actually)...

cz i went out with sum1 that i luv ( in malay i say, SAYANG, not CINTA)...

it was a pleasure cuz i can spent my time with dat sumbody...

da day went very nice...

we went to search for the masquerade mask...

the mask that will be wear by dat sumbody on the party...

what a nice day...

but,

deep in my heart...

i'm SCARED..................

cuz maybe after this...

i wont have the CHANCE to MEET dat sumbody =(

pOor me...

HungryGhost >_<

omg... i'm so HUNGRY... i dun even eat any rice for 2 days... sengal! for these 2 days, i only eat instant mee, some bread, fried noodles... thats all i eat, i dunno why i dun wanna eat rice anymore... maybe after this, when i finished on9-ing then i'll go to cafe to have sumtin la... i wish if Mama can come here rite now... i missed her nasi lemak, special mee bandung... uwaaa!!!!! i wanna go home =(

LostDirection part 2.....

i was sitting in front of the pc since 8am and doin nothing but playing games... i dk why i was too lazy to did my assignment, though i had to submit it tomorrow... i really don't know what to do... HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LostDirection.....

• huh... tomorrow = presantation Tamadun Islam... next week submit summary novel... but, i didn't do NONE OF THEM!
• idk... dz semester, my life was a lil bit miserable...

why????? cz i became very L A Z Y to S T U D Y...

• i'm not paying attention in class
• i did 'low quality' assignments
• i didn't gave full commitment when i did da group tasks...
• i'm not prepared when there's any quizzez @ tests...

HELP ME!
i REALLY NEED some HELP...

SemalamYangSuram...

the CLIMB =)

disebalik senyuman... ada kehampaan...

semalam dah berlalu... sumtin dah berlaku... semalam memeng SERONOK... tapi jadi TAK SERONOK bila ia TAK DAPAT DIKONGSI bersama yang tersayang... mengapa? entahlah... rasa terasa seperti KESEORANGAN pula... biarlah... kalau dia TAK SAYANG KITA... buat apa kita MENGHARAP yang tak pasti... tapi, apa2 pon, SAYA SAYANG KAMU!!! biarlah kamu macam tak mahu layan saya... tapi saya selamanya sayang kamu...

...BehindMyEyes, part 2...

some of the Q & A from our conversation last Sun... hu3

>Do U Still Love Me?
u just nod ur head, then u smile...
>Do U Miss Me?
again u nod ur head & said "sorry, i just don't know how to express it"
>What Are My Fav Colors?
straightly u answered wit your confident smile, "blax & red"... true, i said... "or maybe right now, it is pink? brown perhaps?" yes, those are my latests fav colors ;)
>Can We Have A Day & Spend Our Time Together For That Whole Day?
u was smiling at me & said "InsyaAllah"...
>Did I Ever Made Something Sweet Since We Start This Relationship?
u smile again =) u said, " i like every single thing that u do" gosh, i'm so glad to hear that ;)
>Do You Have Anything That Will Remind U Of Me?
as usual, there was a cute smile at your face... but then u said something that wrecked my heart... "i don't know... can't think of it..." hmm, i was expecting u would said something about kitten or teddy, just like u said to me few years before...

there was some tears behind my eyes... but i'm sure u didn't saw it...

...BehindMyEyes...

it was such a PLEASURE when i met u yesterday... there was such a long time that we didn't see eye to eye... I MISS U, that all that i can say... i'm so sorry cuz i had asked u too many Qs that made u down, i guess? sorry okay? i just didn't know what to ask anymore... maybe i was too EXCITED to see u, that's why all those Qs came out from this cute lil mouth ;) perhaps u could understand me as i always asked u how much u LOVE me... i'm just AFRAID to lose u, that's why i asked that... but i know deep inside your heart, u always love me the way i am, like when the first time we met, right? til right now, i still can remember your BRIGHT SMILE, CUTE VOICE & LAUGH... babe, u always make me HAPPY everytime u be around me =) THANX alotz yah? muahxxx!!!!! but, there's one thing that i had hid BEHIND MY EYES, my TEAR... sorry cuz i had to do that, u HATE me when i CRY, that's why i hid it =( i don't wanna made u SAD!!! babe, SORRY???

HEADache -vs- HEARTache

yesterday... i had posted some PICHAZ to dz blog to express my feeling towardz my life & sum1 who r very special in my life... actually the 1st picha, BLEED IT OUT is a poem... I created that poem on April 7, 2009 while attending IELTS class... actually that morning, in Academic Studies 2 class, my lecturer had assign the class to create a POEM... i had created a poem, a LOVE poem to my love ones... but after that class, i kept thinking to do another poem and walla!!! I finally created a SAD poem that i dedicate to my beloved pet sis... Idk, it seems like we're so far away, although we had been together since secondary skool & rite nw, we're studying in d same college... I really ms her... Myb she was too busy wit her work in dz college, yah as d one of d imprtnt stdnts in d college... Datz why we cant spend time 2gthr anymre... Poor me =( But life must go on... Wutevr hppn, i need to be grown up... Cz i'm too depending on her... She owez said "Plz be MATURE, u're getting older young lady..." hu3... I tried to be mature, to grown up like other gurlz, but i often FAILED =( Idk whtz wrong wit myself??????? Hwever 4 u sis, i hope dz relationshp dat we KEPT since 2006 will still standing forever cz i dun wanna lose u as U're d ONLY SIS 4 me...
Here i wanna apologized 4 everytin wrong dat i'd done 2 u... Thanx alotz 4 all d sweetest memoriez, support, kindness bla3 dat u'd given 2 me... No matter what, I WILL OWEZ LOVE U...

ADEQ SAYANG AKAK..........SELAMANYA............okie?

Actually, rite nw i feel so dizzy as i just woke u from my sleep... Feel so hungry, wanna go 2 cafe & hav some lunch with my besties... Daaaaa......

BleedItOut...

you're the ONE that i can RELY on...
but now it seem like we're so FAR AWAY...
i WISH we could go back to 2006...
where i can have the GREATEST TIME with u again.....